Lord, I am feeling very discouraged. After draining myself DRY writing and publishing and promoting my books, then finishing my last couple weekends taking care of my clients in their home, THEN having to deal with all these seemingly endless problems with my website that STILL are not all fixed… now I find myself STUCK in Michigan, and I am struggling with HOPE, let alone with JOY. :(
Lord, please help the shop finish fixing my Mate’s vehicle, and help him finish getting it ready to drive to Texas. Please help me to find a way to make money without forcing myself into the public eye again right away, as I am feeling more emotionally unstable than I have in quite some time. I honestly feel like curling into a ball and sobbing… my brakes are bad, my transmission is going bad, my blower doesn’t work, my back taillight is out AGAIN… and I am still driving around with a camper tire on my van, with one of my new tires still up on top my brother’s motorhome, holding down weatherproofing.
Lord, I cannot afford to LIVE in this world any longer, even living in my mini van!! I feel like a TOTAL loser, and I really don’t see HOW I can help anyone ELSE, even through my life story, even when I DO have my JOY. I need HELP, Lord. My family has done all they can, my Mate is doing all he can, I feel like I have exhausted my own resources and abilities… I am TIRED. May I please just come HOME and REST? I really do not have ANY home in this miserable world. Even my mini van is giving out.