Lord, I thank you for changing the times and seasons in my little life, helping me adapt to all the ongoing changes, all year long. My Mate and I are still a bit “Homeless Nomads” but this year we are starting a GARDEN at the farm where I was born in Eastern Michigan! <3
One thing I have been realizing more and more is what I would consider a DEFECT in my working self. I am sure SOMEONE out there will be able to relate to this, and I am certain they could explain it better:
It seems that as long as I have something I am supposed to remember to do in the coming day or two or five… even if it is just work and is already written on my calendar… or the opposite, if it is not written anywhere but is just something I am determined to get done by a certain time, like clearing land and digging the new home for my seedlings (my current preoccupation outside of work)…
…it seems that I cannot then work on any of my OWN creative work, even while on a seemingly lengthy break from the main goals (like work or gardening). It’s like having a pan on the fire, and it stays there, smoking, until the “meal” is finished and OVER… only then can I clear that out of my mind and do “accessory” work of a less demanding nature.
Argh! This works well in that I am dependable to a fault, but it sure SUCKS when I work even one or two days each week, because there literally is NEVER a time when I feel FREE to CREATE with the Creator…! Then add to the work week all the gardening and other time-dependent things like meeting friends and family… and I literally have done NOTHING on this site for an entire month, despite ACHING to work on it!!! ARGH!
Therefore I would like anyone reading this to say a little prayer for me, and I raise my own prayer up to our faithful Shepherd… Lord, please help me overcome this weakness within my own self, and be able to find a healthier balance between reliability and being prepared and ready for my obligations… and the creative FREEDOM to use spare minutes and hours to BUILD this site and my OWN projects!! Amen. Lord, I give you my heart, my mind, my aching body, my perpetual insomnia, my dreams and my hopes… and Father, I give you my TIME and ask you to help me to make better use of it. Continue to teach me how to grow, buy, harvest, and prepare healthy food for myself and my Mate. Continue to guide us in all the projects you give us. Amen. THANK YOU, faithful Shepherd!! <3