Lord, I really need HELP focusing on the present moment right now. You see all that has transpired these last several days, and how hard it has been for me to do ANYTHING but just survive. Perhaps that is all that any of us can do right now. I MISS the JOY I had several days ago, but I know that I could have more if I just LET GO of all traces of bitterness and self-preservation, trusting you to provide for every little need I have. It HURTS me and offends me and angers me the way I was made a scapegoat and falsely accused. But I don’t know why I cannot just let it GO — especially since my Mate was so kind to me and supportive and understanding. It HURTS me that I do not have a vehicle to drive to do my laundry, and of course no way to get any more food or supplies… but now I have to choose to either put myself at the mercy of my accuser and probably be falsely accused all over again… and however many more times in the future… or else use the last little bit of laundry soap I have to wash my stuff by hand, and wear STIFF clothes… or just wear dirty clothes… or… who knows? It’s too much for my wounded heart to try to figure out, Lord — so I am just giving the whole stinking mess over to you. If our “friend” dies or gets sick, I will probably be blamed because they did not SEE me wearing a face mask in Walmart that one day that HE declared it was necessary. ONLY YOU know how many countless times I pulled the damn thing up over my face every time I was around people, letting it down to breathe normal whenever I was ten feet or so from people — which was actually most of the time, surprisingly. :D Lord, I feel disrespected and pummeled. I just want to pull into my little shell of a camper and do my work. Please make my clothes and supplies last as long as they possibly can, even to the point of working a miracle. And just as desperately, I ask that you help my mind and heart let GO of its hurt feelings, so I can concentrate on my work and make my deadline for the next newsletter edition. Cover me, Lord, with your faithful WINGS!